Slowly Fading

Gosh, it’s really getting hard to write for this blog anymore. In the past few weeks I have started countless posts but I just can’t get past the first few sentences. I don’t know why this is happening but I certainly know that I feel completely uninspired to write and I don’t feel guilty about that in the least.

A few weeks ago I wrote about trying to challenge myself to have two weekly losses in a row and when the second week came around and I lost I couldn’t muster the energy to write about it. I was excited about it, too. Breaking the yo-yo cycling was great. So I tried for a third week in a row and despite suffering through my time of the month I came out with another loss. I am working my butt off hoping to pull another loss next week which would make June the month of losses for me. The thought of that makes me very happy.

Happy because I am losing? Yes. Happier because I am doing it on my terms? Hells yeah!

I have spent the past few weeks getting in the activities that I love and spending my time in ways that make me happy. I’ve been to parties, movies, bars, and out to dinner at least once a week but I’ve also been running, cycling, and Nia-ing whenever I felt like it. My exercise has become my passion and I just can’t get enough of what I’m doing.

So much so that starting tomorrow I am going to try commuting to work on my bike.

And just last week I rode down to our favorite bar/hangout on my bike to find the best/easiest route from our house.

If I could, I would ride my bike everywhere. And I am working on making that a very real possibility.

And the running. I have no idea what happened. I wrote in a post after I ran my first 5K that I was done with running. I told you that I had signed up for a second 5K but after that I was going to focus more on cycling. Then the second 5K came and it was brutal (finished with .5 mile uphill climb) but for whatever reason I still wanted to keep running. So I started running after my bike rides, and through my neighborhood, and out on the trails and now I just love it. So much so that I signed up for four races in July; three 5Ks and one 4-miler.

I’m actually going to meet a running group tonight for a run along the river walk (one of my favorite places to run in San Antonio) and of course I am trying to figure out the logistics of how I can ride my bike to and from the run meetup.

I just don’t know anymore. My life is interesting but I think it’s just interesting to me. I don’t have any great stories, deep thoughts, of words of wisdom to share with you – and maybe I never did- which is making it that much harder to post.

I’m still around posting on Facebook, tweeting when I can, and of course via email if you want to reach out to me. I’m still the same person working towards a healthy life and I will try to drop in and give you updates once in awhile but for now I think this blog is becoming less of a priority for me. And I’m ok with that.

So, thank you for being the best support team a girl could ask for. I know I wouldn’t be where I am today without all of you. I appreciate your friendship and guidance more than words can express.

Until next time- thanks for reading! I love you guys!

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June 21, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Blogging, Life. 1 comment.

It’s Time to Vlog

I’m home sick from work. I woke up with a killer headache and choose to wait it out hiding under the sheets in the comfort of my bed. I’m still not feeling 100% but with lots of water and rest I am getting there.

While I’ve been relaxing I decided that I wanted to do another vlog. It has been months since the last one and it was so much fun I thought it would be great to do it again.

But I need your help.

What do you want to see? Do you have any questions you’d like me to answer? I’m open to almost anything; weight loss, veganism, marriage, etc. Or would you like to see another cooking vlog? I’m leaving this one up to you. Leave me a comment, shoot me an email (thirtythreeandcounting@gmail.com), Facebook message or tweet (@dacialee33) at me your responses. I’m hoping to vlog this weekend so please get your questions/requests in by Saturday 🙂

That’s all I’ve got for now. Can’t wait to hear from you!

Thanks for reading!

May 29, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Blogging, Vlog. Leave a comment.

This Is Not Goodbye

I need a break.

A break from the blog, a break from social media. Just a break from it all.

After this contest ends I am going on a temporary hiatus from blogging. I have already cut way back on my Twitter and Facebook time and keep going back and forth about deleting my Twitter account entirely.

You have my email- it’s posted on the blog page. You know how to get in touch with me. I will still be here if you need anything at all.

I just need a break.

I need time to reevaluate my situation.

I don’t feel like I am doing my best to help anyone right now, especially not myself.

Right now I am at a point in my journey where reading people’s blogs or going on Twitter is just frustrating to me. It’s hard to explain what’s going on in my head right now and I know if I tried to I would just piss people off so let’s just say I need a break.

I’m drained.

There is no use to keep pushing myself towards these expectations I have set for myself, in regards to this blog, when I know I am never going to get there.

So, I am just going to step away for a bit and decide what my next step will be. What I want from this blog. What message I want to send. I have changed so much and so I think it is time for this blog to change as well.

This is not goodbye. This is just a quick break. I’ll be back and hopefully this blog will still be something that interests you.

Take care and as always, thanks for reading!

April 12, 2012. Tags: , , , , . Blogging, inspiration. 9 comments.

My First Year Blogiversary Celebration

This past Monday was my one year blogiversary. I was too sick to celebrate. That’s life, I guess.

I am feeling somewhat better now, thank you for asking, and am excited to finally have a diagnosis from the doctor; Vitamin D deficiency and anemia. I won’t bore you with the details other than I am going to start taking once a week vitamin d supplements and daily iron supplements and then in twelve weeks back to the lab to check my levels. Hopefully the supplements will make everything all better 🙂

Any who, today I want to celebrate this past year and all of the changes that have happened in my life. It’s amazing to look back on it and see how different my life is now. A year ago I was miserable and at my breaking point. The blog was my last hope. I desperately needed it, and the support of my six friends I told about it, to help push me and keep me accountable. I never thought that in a year’s time (which to me seemed so far in the future) I would grow into something so powerful and lead me here, healthy and happy.

When I first started I weighed 286 pounds which seemed like an impossible number to overcome. In order to get to the top of my healthy weight range (150 pounds) I would need to lose about 48% of my weight- almost half of me! That’s crazy! I needed to lose a healthy 5’5” woman in order to get to a healthy weight. Yikes! That was too much. So I started with small, realistic, short-term goals and rewarded myself when I reached them. That helped me focus on the progress I was making, instead of the giant mountain that lay in front of me, and gave me a sense of accomplishment.

I wasn’t always successful, it wasn’t always easy or rewarding but because of this blog and the amazing support team I have I was able to push through the tough spots. Because of this blog, and all of you, I am pushing through a tough spot right now. I am going to make it through all of this….because of you.

Thank you!

Over the course of the last year….

I walked a 5K for WordPress worldwide 5K day, for Weight Watchers, and for fun…

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I took up boxing, which I now love, and after just six months was asked if I would write a testimonial for their website

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Boxing helped my confidence grow and because of it was able to try new things. I found Nia, my second great love. Nia became a passion of mine and it translated into confidence, self-love and personal acceptance. I was chosen as Nia San Antonio student of the month for September and in December I completed my Nia White Belt Intensive…

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My blog was featured in the Blog Watch section of the Edmonton Journal…

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I’ve been able to reconnect with my friends scattered around the country. These amazing ladies keep me in check!

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I’ve made new friends and found great inspiration. My kindred spirits. I always know they are just a tweet/email/phone call away!

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I went on vacation twice. New Orleans in April and PA/NJ/DE in February…

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I went to lots of hockey games…. with and without the doggies

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There were season ticket holder events, too…

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I became a vegan and my compassion for animal rights grew exponentially…

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I climbed mountains…ok, more like really big rocks

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I laughed, cried, danced, stumbled, climbed, and fell…

I ran a mile without stopping.

I biked a 50K at the gym.

I started a new job.

I became the person I wanted to be; I started living the life I wanted.

I took more time for myself and in turn found the things that were truly important in my life.

I did all of this for me. I did it all with him. My love, my best friend, my number one supporter. Thank you, Paul! I love you!

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This year has changed me and my life so dramatically and I am thankful for these changes every day. I am truly blessed for all of this. I could not ask for more. Last year I was thirty-three and counting, this year I’m thirty-four and freaking fabulous!

Thanks for being with me this past year and I hope you will be with me for many more to come!

Thanks for reading!

February 24, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , , , , , . Blogging, Life, Love. 19 comments.

Random Thoughts

Random topics and thoughts to help get you through your Thursday 🙂

1. In case you hadn’t heard a 4.6 magnitude earthquake hit about 50 miles outside of San Antonio this morning. I was at work, on the ninth floor of a ten floor building, when it happened. The building was swaying; it felt like I was on a boat. I got a little seasick but it passed pretty quickly. Since everyone felt it we all immediately wondered if it was our building possibly about to collapse (kidding, sort of) or if we had an earthquake. People were on their phones and scouring the internet trying to figure out what had happened. It took about 20 minutes but we finally were able to confirm that it was an earthquake. How random? About thirty minutes after the quake our building was evacuated so they could check for structural damage. I was hoping this process would take a long time and we would be able to hang outside and enjoy the fall weather but it wasn’t too long before we were being told we could go back in. Oh, well. I have already lived through a San Antonio snow day I shouldn’t hold my breath for a San Antonio earthquake day 😉

2. Today I went for a walk with the at-work lunchtime walking group. It was the perfect weather for a nice walk along the river. I really enjoyed it and I enjoyed talking with a woman in the group I had never met before. We walked together almost the whole time and it was nice getting to know her. I love meeting new people and I love having company on my walks so it was a win-win for me. Once I was back in the office I promptly went to change back into my work clothes. Unfortunately we don’t have any type of locker room /changing areas in the building I work in. When we get changed we do so in the restroom. Since I am not thrilled with the idea of throwing my clothes onto the bathroom floor while I undress I take the clothes I am changing into and hang them up on the hook on the back of the stall door. Then as I take clothes off I place them on top of my gym bag. As I was doing this clothes switch I hung my work pants on the hook and as I did I noticed the mother of all tears in the crotch of my pants. If I had to guess the tear is four to six inches long. Not sure but it basically runs the length of my lady parts. Ugh! I am pretty sure it is not noticeable from the back but I am trying to stay seated at my desk as much as possible just to be safe. This sucks. I have to pee. Not to mention these are new pants and this is only the second time I have worn them. Boo that!

3. I thought Pandora was spot on today playing all kinds of great songs I love. Then I realized I had my iPod on shuffle. LOL!

4. Will I still be able to float next summer? I am/was a very buoyant person but I think a lot of that is due to my high body fat percentage. Next summer when I am at a normal body fat percentage will I still be able to float? Paul has very little body fat and he can’t float. I wonder if that will happen to me.

5. Should I change my blog name in January once I am 34?

6. If I did another vlog would you want to see a cooking one or a Q&A one? Keep in mind if it is a cooking one it will probably be a vegan dish.

Ok, that’s all I’ve got for today. Thanks for reading!

October 20, 2011. Tags: , , , , . Life, San Antonio. 5 comments.

I need your help!

I have an idea and I need your help to execute it. I decided the other day that I wanted to do a vlog (video blog) but I wasn’t really sure what I should talk about. Knowing how I talk, if I go into this without a game plan, you would end up seeing ten minutes of nonsensical babble. Trust me; you don’t want to see that. I think it would be best if I had specific topics to talk about so I am asking for your help. I think it would be fun for me this vlog was dedicated to answering questions submitted by you. It would help give me things to talk about and at the same time, hopefully, make it interesting for you to watch. If you would like to ask me a question or have a topic you would want me to talk about leave me a comment or you can email, tweet, Facebook, or text me your question- whatever is easiest for you. I will compile the list Friday and will record it hopefully Saturday afternoon. Feel free to ask whatever you want- I will answer pretty much any question within reason. I am very excited about this and hopefully you are too!

Thanks for reading! Now get to work! 🙂

August 29, 2011. Tags: , , , . Blogging. 15 comments.

Five Top Fives and Friday Updates

Before I get to my five top fives I would just like to give you a few updates. If you are a Facebook friend or follow me on Twitter then you probably have already heard this but just in case I wanted to make sure you all knew that tonight I get to punch someone in the face. Well, that’s my goal at least. Paul has 24-hour duty tonight so I decided to take a boxing class after work (this will be my third this week) in order to keep me from eating take out and watching TV all night. When I was at the gym Wednesday I asked one of the instructors as to who taught Friday’s class and she told me who and then proceeded to explain how on Friday things are a little different. On Friday we are paired with real boxers and we rotate, in two-minute intervals, between fighting them and hitting the bags. We can hit them, they cannot hit us back. This helps them train defensively and helps us develop our technique. My co-worker pointed out that I probably won’t be punching anyone in the face- it will be pretty hard for me to land a punch on an actual boxer- which is true but I will definitely have fun trying.

Also, I wanted to share with you that I am pretty nervous about tomorrow’s weigh-in. I am just .4 lbs away from reaching my 5% goal, the goal I had hoped to reach last week, and I am doubtful I will reach it this week. I haven’t noticed any movement in the scale this week. I have definitely been working hard though; I have logged just under 7 hours of gym time so far but it hasn’t done much for me on the scale. I have also struggled this week with using all my daily points allotted to me in the Weight Watchers program. I am having issues with eating after work, either pre or post workout, because my body just can’t handle the intake of food. I need to beef up my breakfasts, lunches, and snacks for next week to help remedy this.

I know that part of the scale issue stems from the fact that I am developing muscle from the boxing classes which is contributing to the weight not going down. I feel great and my clothes are starting to get baggy so I know I am losing inches. I am thinking about starting to track my measurements, probably monthly, to help show my progress in another way. I don’t plan on letting this plateau, for lack of a better term, slow me down. I am trying really hard not to let it frustrate me. Heck, I am like 115 pounds over weight- it shouldn’t be this hard to lose weight. I know I will work through this; I just wanted to share with you my frustrations. Good thing I have boxing tonight- it will definitely help me work through these emotions.   

On a lighter note, I would like to do another blog giveaway. Does anyone have any recommendations to what type of products they would be interested in winning? I was thinking either a book or another craft item from an artist on Etsy. I know a lot of people use Pinterest, and their new app, is there anything you have your eyes on? I am just not sure what to pick so I am taking recommendations. I am open to any/all suggestions. I would really appreciate your feedback on this so please leave me some ideas in the comments! 🙂

Friday Top Fives

Yesterday, thanks to my blog obsession and Freshly Pressed who featured this blogger the other day, I read this amazing post about 5 Classic Best of Collections. Inspired by this post I decided I would share with you some of my own Top Five lists.

Top Five:  Favorites from my gym playlist- songs that help keep me moving

Dog Days are Over- Florence + the Machine

Heads Will Roll-  Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Rolling In the Deep- ADELE

Born This Way- Lady GaGa

Electric Feel- MGMT

Top Five: Favorite albums acquired in the last few years

Sigh No More- Mumford & Sons

Brothers- The Black Keys

The King is Dead- The Decemberists

The Airborne Toxic Event- The Airborne Toxic Event

Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix- Phoenix

Top Five: Albums I would need in order to survive being stranded on a desert island

Ziggy Stardust- David Bowie

Little Earthquakes- Tori Amos

The Killers- Sawdust (US Version)

Beastie Boys- Seven Day Weekend

Blood on the Tracks- Bob Dylan

Top Five: Foods I crave

New York style pizza

Cupcakes- yes, I am still cupcake obsessed even if that trend is long gone

Penang Curry- I really love all types of Thai curry but Penang is my favorite

Su Jung Gwa- Korean tea, served cold, flavored with cinnamon, persimmons and ginger served as a dessert. This is my favorite part of going out for Korean food

Dim Sum- I love so much about eating traditional cart-stlye dim sum. I love dumplings but I also love plates of Chinese broccoli and roasted quail.

Top Five: Blog topics I love to read about

Travel- I love reading both stories from people’s vacations as well as people living abroad

Weight Loss- I know this is an obvious one but I am motivated and inspired by reading about other people’s successes and struggles

Photography- I love photography blogs not just for the beauty they present to their readers but I also love to read everyone else’s comments. It’s interesting to see other perspectives

Humor- I have a number of go-to blogs that I rely on for my daily dose of laughter. I wish I was as witty and clever as these writers.

Food- I love looking at blogs about cooking of all types; healthy, traditional, baking, for the family, etc. I read them for inspiration and ideas and because I love food.

Well, that’s about it for me today. I hope you have a fabulous weekend. Thanks for reading!

May 13, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , , , , , . Diet, Exercise, Fitness, Food, Life, Music. 22 comments.

I’m baaaaaacccckkkk….

Well, I must admit that although my vacation was awesome I am so happy to be home. It was fun breaking out my routine, seeing new sights, trying new foods, etc., but it is hard to balance that lifestyle with my normal routine which is almost completely based around weight loss. I went into New Orleans with a set of goals and a mindset to stick to them no matter what until I got there and realized I would much rather be out exploring than stuck in the gym. I did go a little overboard when it came to food but I tried my hardest to not go too crazy and most times I would order an appetizer as my entrée to at least help keep my portion sizes down. I am very happy to report that I weigh less now than I did before I left. I doubt the scales will reflect a big loss on Saturday but hopefully I will still see some kind of loss even if it is negligible.  For me, right now my biggest goal is to get back into my routine of eating well and exercising regularly. It is surprising as to how quickly one can fall out of their routine. Hopefully I can finish out this week strong.

I was so happy to read all the comments you guys posted while I was away. I hope you enjoyed the pictures and reading about what we were up to. It was great to be able to share them with you. I really missed being able to write my normal posts while I was away but even more so I missed reading everyone else’s blogs. I tried my best to read as many posts as I could each day but it was tough and I missed a lot of them. I feel like I am a week behind in my reading and hope to catch up soon. It is weird not reading your blogs everyday- I felt so disconnected from you, it was a very strange feeling. I had no idea how much of an impact your words have on my life. It was amazing and somewhat shocking to have that type of reaction. There are a few blogs I read that are written by my close friends and I use these as a way to help me stay connected to their lives. However, most of the blogs I read are written by strangers (meaning I don’t know them outside of their blog) and it was so weird to be on vacation wondering how they were doing with their weight loss or what recipes they posted today or how their training is going, etc.  I guess my point of all this babble is it is amazing how close you can grow to people just by reading their blogs.

In other news, things have been quite chaotic since my return to Texas on Monday. While we were away our apartment flooded due to a leak from our A/C unit. My dog walker, Olivia, who was staying at our apartment contacted maintenance and they came out to fix it on Saturday. On Monday, we returned to even more water which had spread from the hallway/bathroom area into our bedroom. Tuesday and Wednesday they came out again and have since assured us the problem has been fixed. Now we are just waiting on the carpet people to come out and replace the padding that was removed last week. What a pain in the butt!

Today at work my boss came over to my desk to drop off a sealed envelope. Yes, I had a mini-stroke thinking it was a pink slip. I think he noticed the look of terror on my face because almost immediately he told me it wasn’t pink. As soon as he left I tore it open, of course thinking it was bad news, only to find that it was paperwork from HR notifying me of my merit raise. Woot! Ok, so it was only a 4% raise but I was still happy to get anything as I have only been here since August and the word on the street was that we probably wouldn’t be getting a raise this year due to our buyout. I’ll take that 4% and be happy with it, no complaints here.

Hmmmm….what else??? I feel so out of practice since it has been a week or so since my last real post. Oh, I almost forgot – I have a goal deadline coming up on April 30th, my second one month weigh-in. The goal was to lose 10 pounds in April so we’ll see on Saturday if that happened or not. It will be close, I don’t think I will be able to pull it off but I am going to try my best to lose those last couple pounds before the weigh-in. Make sure to check back on Saturday!

Paul and I registered yesterday for the Gorilla Challenge taking place here in San Antonio. It’s like a giant scavenger hunt around the city with teams competing for a cash prize. There is also a costume contest and a gorilla contest as well as prizes along the way. Apparently these go on all over the country and if it wasn’t for Living Social (half price registration fee) I probably would not have heard about this. It is scheduled for May 21st and I am pretty pumped about this because I have never done anything like this before. It should be pretty cool!

Before I go I would just like to wish my friend MS a very Happy Birthday! Her birthday was Tuesday, I missed it (although I did text, I didn’t forget it) and we are going to be celebrating it together on Saturday. Also, I would like to congratulate my friend KO. She had a second interview today in Georgia- they would be crazy not to hire her!

Thanks for reading! I missed you guys!

P.S. Can you guess which one is my newest addition, picked up in NOLA, to my little collection of tchotchkes on my desk???

April 28, 2011. Tags: , , , , , . Life. 8 comments.

“The future you see is the future you get”

My first goal deadline is looming with April 1st is just around the corner. As it has been approaching I have found myself spending more time thinking about goals; both long-term and short-term, and how I hadn’t yet established a formal list of what I am hoping to accomplish over the next year. I knew that in order to be successful this was something that needed to be done. The list I put together includes both weight loss and personal goals and I hope this will help me to stay focused on what I am trying to accomplish and hold me accountable to follow through.

When I first started this blog and my weight loss journey, I was hoping to lose ten pounds a month for the first few months. I did realize that was a little above the 1-2 pound per week average but since I have a lot of weight to lose it is not unrealistic for me to try to aim higher. However, reading up on the new WW program, they say that if you follow the new points plus plan you should only lose 1-1.5 pounds a week. Regardless of what WW says, I am still going to set my monthly goals at 10 pounds. Knowing it won’t come easily give me a reason to work even harder.

Short-Term Goals

1. My personal short-term goal is to lose 10 pounds a month for the first six months; March through August

2. WW goal: 5% (14 pounds) weight loss. This is based on my starting WW weight of 280. Target date to 266; May 7th

3. WW goal: 10% (28 pounds) weight loss. This is based on my starting WW weight of 280. Target date to 252; June 18th

4. Post on my blog at least five days a week

5. Paul entered me into a chili cookoff at his work. It is a fundraising event. I plan on winning it and will do so using a healthy, low-fat recipe. Date TBD, but will keep you posted.

Long-Term Goals

1. Over the course of the next year I would like to take at least 4 vacations, this includes weekend trips because I have very limited vacation time at my job. I need to experience more of life outside of San Antonio.

2. My biggest goal, only because I truly have to bust my butt to get to this point, is to be able to shop at regular stores- size 12/14. I cannot wait until this day comes. I hate, hate, hate shopping at plus size stores; not because I am embarrassed but because I really have a hard time finding styles of clothes that I like.

3. New job or new position at current job. I feel like my career growth has come to a screeching halt so I am working on finding something better.

4. Be on an IVF waitlist or an adoption waitlist. Which list we end up on will be determined by Paul’s biopsy.

5. In one year I expect to be happier with myself and the progression I have made and plan to still be working towards becoming a better version of myself. To me, that journey will never have an end date.

I am a lucky person because the feedback and support I receive from you helps to provide me with the strength and motivation I need to continue to work towards my goals. This isn’t all just about me though; I would love to hear about your goals and what you are working towards in the short or long-term. I hope to be as supportive of you as you have all been of me.

Thanks for reading!

“The future you see is the future you get” Robert G. Allen

March 28, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , , . Diet, Life, obesity. 4 comments.