Slowly Fading

Gosh, it’s really getting hard to write for this blog anymore. In the past few weeks I have started countless posts but I just can’t get past the first few sentences. I don’t know why this is happening but I certainly know that I feel completely uninspired to write and I don’t feel guilty about that in the least.

A few weeks ago I wrote about trying to challenge myself to have two weekly losses in a row and when the second week came around and I lost I couldn’t muster the energy to write about it. I was excited about it, too. Breaking the yo-yo cycling was great. So I tried for a third week in a row and despite suffering through my time of the month I came out with another loss. I am working my butt off hoping to pull another loss next week which would make June the month of losses for me. The thought of that makes me very happy.

Happy because I am losing? Yes. Happier because I am doing it on my terms? Hells yeah!

I have spent the past few weeks getting in the activities that I love and spending my time in ways that make me happy. I’ve been to parties, movies, bars, and out to dinner at least once a week but I’ve also been running, cycling, and Nia-ing whenever I felt like it. My exercise has become my passion and I just can’t get enough of what I’m doing.

So much so that starting tomorrow I am going to try commuting to work on my bike.

And just last week I rode down to our favorite bar/hangout on my bike to find the best/easiest route from our house.

If I could, I would ride my bike everywhere. And I am working on making that a very real possibility.

And the running. I have no idea what happened. I wrote in a post after I ran my first 5K that I was done with running. I told you that I had signed up for a second 5K but after that I was going to focus more on cycling. Then the second 5K came and it was brutal (finished with .5 mile uphill climb) but for whatever reason I still wanted to keep running. So I started running after my bike rides, and through my neighborhood, and out on the trails and now I just love it. So much so that I signed up for four races in July; three 5Ks and one 4-miler.

I’m actually going to meet a running group tonight for a run along the river walk (one of my favorite places to run in San Antonio) and of course I am trying to figure out the logistics of how I can ride my bike to and from the run meetup.

I just don’t know anymore. My life is interesting but I think it’s just interesting to me. I don’t have any great stories, deep thoughts, of words of wisdom to share with you – and maybe I never did- which is making it that much harder to post.

I’m still around posting on Facebook, tweeting when I can, and of course via email if you want to reach out to me. I’m still the same person working towards a healthy life and I will try to drop in and give you updates once in awhile but for now I think this blog is becoming less of a priority for me. And I’m ok with that.

So, thank you for being the best support team a girl could ask for. I know I wouldn’t be where I am today without all of you. I appreciate your friendship and guidance more than words can express.

Until next time- thanks for reading! I love you guys!


June 21, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Blogging, Life. 1 comment.

Well, hello there…

I have been in a funk for months now. Although life has been great and I have had some wonderful adventures and created many fabulous memories when it comes to my weight loss journey I have been in a rut.

And until a few days ago I didn’t know why.

Or maybe I did but just didn’t want to admit it.

But the cat is out of the bag now. I have realized where I went wrong and the changes I need to make to get back on track and I am more than ready to make them.

Here’s the short version of what I’m talking about; well maybe not short but it’s the shortest version I can give you.

I went into 2012 seeking balance in my life. I had spent the previous 10 months dedicating 100% of my time to my weight loss journey. I spent my evenings at fitness classes, weekend activities were planned around workouts, I was constantly tweaking my diet to find out what worked best for my body and I experienced great results because of it. By Christmas I had lost 100 pounds in just 10 months and I was beyond the moon excited.

Although I couldn’t have been happier about my weight loss I was definitely feeling the toll those months had put on me. I had no social life. I barely saw my husband. I was borderline obsessive with my weight. I needed a break. I needed balance.

And so, 2012 started with my search for balance. I decided to ease up a bit and focus more of my attention on the aspects of my life I had neglected, namely my husband, as well as set some different goals/aspirations for myself. I was ready to start running. Something Paul does and enjoys doing and something I had always hoped to do with him. My focus was now on the only goal I had set for myself – run an entire 5K. I steadily progressed through the 8 week Couch to 5K program and at the end was able to run my first 5K, which I did in 34 minutes and 4 seconds! Paul and I also bought road bikes and took up cycling. I was enjoying my new hobbies.

I was also enjoying all of the fun activities Paul and I were partaking in; hockey games, beer tastings, parties, and lots of relaxing at home watching TV.

I was definitely bringing my focus back towards the areas of my life I had been neglecting but somewhere along the way I went from one end of the spectrum to the other. I hadn’t found balance, I found social Dacia. And I welcomed her back with open arms.

My life had gone from a constant focus on my weight loss to a constant focus on fun. I found myself becoming less active, some days even skipping workouts, but I was completely oblivious to this change in mindset since I was pretty much maintaining my weight. I had some fun new hobbies that were keeping me (somewhat) active, I was still following a vegan diet, and I still felt I was putting my health first but was I really?

I think what had happened was this- I was doing was enough to get by and that kept me feeling like I was still committed to my journey. However, it kept me from really making much progress this year and that has really started to wear on me. Bouncing between the same few pounds week in and week out, who needs it? Definitely not me.

Then the other night I was talking with Paul and he made a comment in regards to my fitness. He said;

“You write in your blog and tell others about how they need to find what makes them happy and yet you stopped doing everything you love. You stopped boxing, you stopped Nia, and you took up running which you don’t even enjoy.”

Yep. His comment was spot on.

Yes, I had my reasons for stopping my group exercise classes and at the time I thought swapping them for running and other standard gym activities would be no big deal.

And maybe it would have been no big deal if I had the same passion for running, the stationary bike and swimming that I had for the group exercise classes. But I don’t.

To say I enjoy running would be a half truth. I enjoyed setting a goal and achieving it but the training, the boring days on the treadmill, the solitude- eh, blah. That’s kind of how I feel. I plan on continuing to run but for fun. For me. When I feel like it. Out on the trails. Not on a treadmill. Not following a set training schedule. I’m just not that person. No matter how hard I try to convince myself otherwise. Maybe one day. But not now.

So after a few conversations with Paul about what I want to start doing again (Nia, yoga, Journey Dance, spin class) and what new things I want to try (crossfit, body pump, boot camp, TRX) we have come up with a plan on how I will get back into my happy place in regards to my workouts and still continue to have a life as well. A plan to find balance.

This Sunday I will be returning to the Synergy Studio and I will start back with some Nia, yoga, and Journey Dance classes. I won’t be going every day because there are other things I want to do but going 1-2 times a week will help bring focus on the self-love/self-worth aspect of this journey. Those classes, in that studio, bring me calmness and inner peace and help me grow and heal both my physical and mental state.

Paul and I will also be taking advantage of a two week trial pass we have for the YMCA. The closest Y to where we live (which is literally down the street from Synergy) offers a crap ton of evening classes that would work into both of our schedules. They have multiple spin classes daily. They offer yoga, Pilates, and Tai Chi as well as the more challenging classes I crave like boot camp, boxing and TRX. Plus they even have a rock climbing wall. How cool?
I think we are both optimistic that we will like the classes and trainers there and will be joining the YMCA after our trial period is up.

I am also excited because they offer early classes so I can hit up a class after work, shower, and still have time to hit up our favorite watering hole for a beer every now and again.

We can still enjoy our long bike rides together and then spend time with friends.

I can dance a Nia routine with some of the most amazing women I have ever met and then curl up with a book afterwards.

To me, that is balance.

And that’s what I need right now.

I’ll be sure to keep you posted on how the next few weeks play out. I am glad to be back. I’ve missed you guys. But I needed this break. I hope you understand. Sometimes things have to get worse before they can get better and I think the worst is over now. I’m ready to recommit myself to this journey, and to this blog, and start being accountable again. Are you with me?

Thanks for reading! 🙂

P.S. for those of you that have been reading this blog for awhile may remember that I had set a reward for myself that when I hit the halfway mark to my weight loss goal I would go ziplining. Well the timing didn’t really work out and that reward kept getting pushed to the backburner. Well, you’ll be happy to know that I finally bought a ziplining package (through Groupon, yay!) and I hope to use it in the next few weeks. Post and pics to come 🙂

May 18, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , . Fitness, Life, Weight Loss. 2 comments.

A Letter From a Friend

Today is my birthday. Woo Hoo! I am now thirty-four years old (which makes me wonder about changing my blog name- I’m seriously thinking about it) and I feel freaking fabulous. This is the first year in who knows how long that I didn’t dread getting older and seeing that number change because this is the first year in a very long time that I feel good about myself. Today I woke up and felt great, I felt ready to take on any possibility that this year holds for me and that is such a wonderful feeling. Then I looked over at my sleeping husband, my partner in crime, my best friend and soul mate and thought about the great year that lies ahead for both of us. I can feel big changes on the horizon and I can’t wait!

The other day I received a letter in the mail. It was from me. I wrote it a month ago during my Nia White Belt Intensive. During the WBI we were asked to write a letter to our body and when we finished it we gave it to someone else. Each of us agreed to send the letter at some point over the next two months. Mine came on Saturday and I was excited to read it and reflect back on how I felt when I wrote it. It is so applicable to how I feel now in this journey and I wanted to share it with you.

To my beautiful body,

​Thank you for carrying me through this White Belt Intensive and my journey so far. I was impressed by your resiliency just as I have been since we started this journey back in February. I am also impressed with your power to heal. I know, I can feel it to be true, that you were sick and hurting and now you are whole again. I try my best not to push you too hard, to understand your limits, and give you the best nourishment possible but sometimes I fail and for that I am sorry. I will try my best to honor you every day. My oldest and dearest friend. You are sacred. Without you I wouldn’t exist. Thank you for allowing me to follow my dreams and live the life I want. I cannot wait to see what is in store for us next. Are you up for the challenge?



Have you ever written a letter to yourself? I think this is a first for me. It was pretty cool getting it in the mail. It was the perfect way to help me reflect on my journey and progress as I pass this milestone in my life. Birthdays are fun and a great reason to celebrate life. Today is my gift and I can only hope I have the gift of many more tomorrow’s to come. If you are wondering how I am celebrating you should know I have a big day planned. I am going to be participating in my at work yoga class, back to back boxing classes after work, and enjoying the healthy and tasty meals I brought to work. Yeah, it’s pretty much my typical Monday with the exception of the decorations all over my desk at work. The real celebration comes Saturday when Paul and I head to S.A.R.A (society for animal rescue and adoption) in Seguin, TX to do some volunteer work and spend the day with the animals. I can’t wait.




Thanks for reading! Love thirty-four and counting 😉

January 9, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , . Life, Nia. 9 comments.

My 2012 Resolutions

I have been thinking a lot about resolutions lately, which I am sure comes as no big surprise, and thought about my past and previous resolutions. To be honest, I am not really sure what resolutions I had made in the past but I am pretty sure it involved weight loss. I am guessing that is pretty typical to set a resolution to lose weight and knowing where I was in my life previous New Year’s I am not surprised why the resolutions never did stick. I am a firm believer that change can only happen in your life once you have accepted that it needs to happen and accepted what needs to be done in order to get there. I have always known that I needed to lose weight (so I was always willing to accept and allow that change into my life) yet I never accepted that there were actions needed to be taken BY ME in order to get there. I am pretty sure I thought if I willed weight loss long enough it would just happen. By February of 2011 I was ready to put forth the effort needed in order to allow me to change and I have been moving forward ever since.

With that being said I created a set of resolutions for 2012 not out of some sense of obligation but because I am now in a place in my life where I can achieve whatever I set my intentions to. I guess you could call these goals or maybe even plans but since they require resolve in order for me to accomplish them this year I choose to call them resolutions.

2012 Resolutions

– Reach a healthy weight and maintain it through the rest of the year

-Teach a Nia class

-Run a race (even if its only a 1 mile run)


-Revamp my blog

-Be a better wife, daughter and friend

These are my resolutions but rest assured I have a plan, or at least a beginning of one- I mean it’s only January 2nd, for each as to how I can accomplish it. For example, one of my resolutions is to teach a Nia class this year and so Paul and I are going to empty out the spare bedroom the best we can, hang up mirrors along one wall, and convert it into a practice studio for me. I have already started thinking about how I will schedule in the time to learn the music and the routines and what activities it will replace in my schedule. So yes, I realize that these resolutions may seem vague but please understand that I am creating an action plan for each so I can be successful this year.

I want to share with you two stories I have about my resolutions and how they played into my weekend. As you may already know, Paul and I went hiking on New Year’s Eve up to the summit of Enchanted Rock and it was just amazing. When we reached the top we sat for a little while having a snack, taking in the beauty of it all, talking about 2012 and what we expected from the new year. I asked Paul about his resolutions and he said something like ‘ I hope this year that maybe I can…’. I told him that he had to say them as declarative statements of what will happen like ‘this year I will’. I told him that we were on Enchanted Rock and it is magical and whatever we say while we are here will come true. We spent the rest of our time talking about what WILL happen this year opposed to what MIGHT happen and I do belive it makes a difference. Maybe it won’t be the magic of the Enchanted Rock that makes it happen. More than likely it will be believing that we can accomplish them that will get us there but I know we will both successful in the upcoming year.


On New Year’s day I went with my friend MS to a Sound Journey/Burning Bowl ceremony at the Synergy Studio. As we lay on the floors listening to the Tibetan bowls we were asked to allow our bodies to present us with a theme for 2012- a word that will help set our intention for the new year. When that word came to us we wrote it on flash paper that was later set on fire and the energy from all of our intentions set out into the universe. While I was laying there listening to the music I had so many thoughts running through my mind; so many words that I thought were applicable to my journey and the year ahead. Health and healing, learning, teaching, growth and strength along with probably a dozen more words crossed my mind but I just never felt them as my theme, the driver of my intentions. So I switched my thought process and focused on my resolutions and as soon as I did that I found my theme instantly; LOVE.  My theme is love.

Reach a healthy weight and maintain it through the rest of the year- Love of myself, love of my body.

Teach a Nia class- love for Nia, a love of sharing something magical with others

Run a race- love of a challenge, love of personal growth

Volunteer- love of others, love of helping

Revamp my blog- love of you (because you deserve to look at something nice) and love of creativity and this creative outlet

Be a better wife, daughter and friend- love for my husband, my parents and my friends

Every resolution I set this year was set around love. Knowing this theme, and finding it organically, has made me recognize how truly amazing this year will be. It’s 2012 people; the year of LOVE!

What are your resolutions? Do you have a theme for the year?

Thanks for reading!


January 2, 2012. Tags: , , , , , , , , , . inspiration, Life. 7 comments.

My Nia White Belt Intensive; Part One

I wanted to share with you this video taken after the graduation ceremony from my Nia White Belt Intensive. It is the perfect illustration of what Nia means to me; happiness, community, acceptance, love, laughter, peacefulness, and friendship. The song is from a Nia routine and at some points you will see us dancing to some of the moves, jazz square – cha, cha, cha and jumping jacks, but most of it is us free dancing, having fun and celebrating this accomplishment. Not only was it a celebration for the graduates but for the trainers as well. It was an amazing day and I hope that plays through in the video.

P.S. Sorry for the fact that most of the video all you see of me is my backside 😉

Here are a couple photos I took on graduation day.


Adelle Brewer and Joanie Brooks both Nia Black Belts and my trainers for the White Belt. Although I have only known them for six months they have played such a vital role in my journey. They inspire me every day and I am so lucky to have them in my life!


I just had to sneak in a picture of me in my white belt. How cool???

Thanks for reading!

December 14, 2011. Tags: , , , , , . Nia, San Antonio, Uncategorized. 6 comments.

Weighing In (Week 38)

I am not going to talk about the program changes discussed in my Weight Watchers meeting. The way I look at is if you are doing WW then you already know all of this and if you aren’t doing it then you probably don’t care to read about it. I will note that for whatever reason my points did not change; I was at 30 before the change and am still at 30. What I did want to discuss was my weight loss this week and the impact the change to my schedule had on my body. I lost 1.4 pounds this week, which is great – don’t get me wrong, but I had a really hard weekend and my weight was all over the place throughout the Nia White Belt Intensive. You see although I ate the same food Friday, Saturday and Sunday that I do Monday through Thursday (it was just easier to treat being gone all day at the WBI like I was going to work- breakfast at home and all other meals/snacks at the WBI) my body was not handling it the same. Why, you ask? Well there are a few reasons that come to mind. The big reason being every night I was there I was unable to eat dinner which meant I would eat dinner after we finished which was much, much later than I am used to. To make matters worse I would eat and then within an hour I would be in bed. Normally I eat around 4pm prior to working out and then maybe I will have a small snack with some Kombucha post-workout. Instead I found myself eating at 7/730p, at which point I would be ravenous and eat super fast not even paying attention to my body, and then go to bed feeling full and disgusting. You know me, I am a planner and a snacker, so you are probably wondering why I let myself get to that point where I was starving come dinner time. Well, I packed tons of snacks (I even brought extras for others just in case) and yet we just didn’t have any breaks where I could eat anything. It was definitely an unfamiliar situation for me.

In reality what I went through last weekend was not a big deal and it just goes to show me that I can prepare for anything and still things might not go as planned. My point of this whole rant is that even though I did great with my food choices, stayed OP, got in tons of activity (3-4 hours of dancing each day throughout the weekend) and maintained my water intake my weight went up every day I was off of my eating schedule. This weekend showed me that it’s not just about what I am eating it is also about how and when I am eating. It’s something I need to recognize going forward and pay more attention to it. I also acknowledge that there will be many times in life where I will be pushed off my schedule and I might even end up making bad food choices but that is part of life and I have to accept it. It does however reinforce the good habits I do have which is a definite plus.

Yesterday I posted a link to the boxing gym where I take classes at, the Club KO, where my photograph and testimonial are published. I asked if anyone would want to read the full testimonial I sent them and someone said yes so here it is, the unedited version:

In February 2011 I started my weight loss journey. Weighing in at 286 pounds I knew I had a long road ahead of me. By May, after a few months of exercising regularly and twenty pounds of weight loss, I was ready to try something new, something challenging, that would help keep me motivated in this process. I decided to give boxing a try. I was apprehensive at first since I was very overweight and pretty uncoordinated. I was even too nervous to call Club KO to find out about the pricing and whether or not I could participate in the classes at my current fitness level so I had my husband call. He was assured that although the classes were not easy they were structured in a way so we could work at our own pace and that I should be fine. He also found out that the first class is free so I had no reason not to give it a shot.

That first class was extremely hard and it took 100% of my efforts to make it to the end but I survived. It wasn’t a pretty picture; I had no idea about the proper form for punching, I didn’t know how to coordinate my breathing, my footwork was atrocious, I couldn’t hold a plank position or complete every rep in the abdominal work but I made it through the entire class which was all I was hoping for. I left that day with a huge sense of pride and accomplishment for what I had done. I pushed myself harder, for longer, than I ever had before and immediately I knew I wanted to do it again. Since then my technique and endurance has improved, in each class I find I am able to more reps and hold positions longer, with every class my confidence grows and it is all because of the trainers at Club KO.

The best part about the trainers is that they expect 100% from you every minute of every class but they recognize that my 100% and another student’s 100% is different. They didn’t expect me to come into the gym and immediately become an expert boxer. They did however expect me to learn the correct technique, test my boundaries, and push hard the whole time. They always have encouraging words when they see you are giving it your all and when you aren’t they try to motivate you to give more. I never have felt that I was treated differently because of my size or my level of ability actually it was the opposite. I have felt included and accepted from day one which has made getting to this point in my journey a reality. I know I wouldn’t be where I am today, 90 pounds lost, if it weren’t for Club KO. I am excited to continue to work with them every week to help get me to my goal and to continue on with them after in maintaining it.

Thanks for reading!

December 6, 2011. Tags: , , , , , . Weight Loss, Weight Watchers. 4 comments.

My Life These Days…and a Winner is Announced

First and foremost I need to address the business of the giveaway and announce the winner. At about 530am I went to my blog and using excel notated the names of everyone who entered. There were 17 entries in total so I used to generate a random number for me using 1-17 as my range and the lucky number was….drum roll…..da da da da da da….eleven! Number eleven is my friend Racheal and I contacted her this morning to let her know the good news. She had chose prize number 3 which was the Michael Pollan books. I am hoping she will let me know her thoughts of the books and whether or not they changed her eating/purchasing habits at all. Maybe I can even get her to guest post about the books, who knows. It’s totally up to her but Racheal, if you are reading, let me know if you would be interested in doing something for the blog.



Thank you all who entered and thank you to those who tweeted the link! You guys are awesome and if I could afford everyone who entered would have won! I am looking forward to the next giveaway, whatever it might be, and am open to any suggestions 🙂

In other news, life has been pretty hectic- especially this past weekend. The first half of my Nia White Belt Intensive is behind me and I can’t wait to write a post dedicated to the whole experience that includes a schedule and details as to what it entailed. For now I am just going to give you a few thoughts running through my head. I love Nia, which you already know, but do you know why I love Nia? Nia is a great workout; it is a cardiovascular activity yet it’s not too intense. The dancing, the music, and the community make it such an amazing way to spend an hour of my life. But I love other activities too like yoga and tai chi but I don’t have the same emotional connection to them as I have with Nia. This weekend I realized why that is, why I love Nia so much.

I was talking with DG, another Synergy member and Nia participant yesterday about her weight loss- she looks fabulous by the way. I had asked her about her story and she told me that she was at her heaviest about ten years ago, while still in high school. Then she started running and going to the gym and she lost a lot of weight which she subsequently gained most of it back. Then about two years ago she found Nia and it has brought her to where she is today- about 80 pounds lighter and in great shape. I asked her if she changed other areas of her life or was it just Nia and she told me how she needed something that was spiritual as well as physical and that Nia gave that to her. It made her whole as a person.

I knew exactly what she meant. Nia is good for your body, mind and soul. It has changed my life because it is the first time that I actually love myself. Nia has taught me acceptance and self love and that is why I am where I am today. I have dieted/exercised before and lost weight and it never stuck because I never fixed the cause instead I just tried to fix the effect. Once I found Nia and the self-hate, self-doubt, embarrassment, disgust, all of the negative feelings I had about myself, started to go away I started making better decisions for myself, putting my health first, and really wanting to change and become a better person. I truly understood what I wanted out of my life and set out to try to make it happen. Do you know why? Because I freaking deserve it. I am good enough. I know now that as long as I keep my mind, and my body, and my spirit whole then I will be successful at anything I set my mind towards.

Another great thing about Nia is as I learn more about the principles and ideas it was built on, the mystery of why it has been so life changing is uncovered. As we are taught to ‘dance through life’, view ‘life as art’, and live in ‘the joy of movement’ (in universal joy which is a sensation, opposed to joyfulness/enjoyment which is an emotion) it becomes more and more clear why this practice has transformed my life. I couldn’t be more thankful for where I am today and having the fortune to be learning more about something I hold so dearly. I hope one day to dance with you, my readers, my friends and have you experience this with me.

One last thing before I go I wanted to share this with you.

The Club KO

Pretty cool, huh? One of the owner/trainers asked me if I would write up a testimonial for the gym’s website. The version on the site has been edited since I tend to go a little overboard when I write (I know that’s a shock to you, right?) and if you want to see the full piece, I think it’s three paragraphs, let me know and I will post it. I was just so thrilled that they had asked me to be on their website even though I am still 1/3 of the way from my goal but they said they want to inspire others, people that were/are in my shoes, to not be scared to try boxing. Isn’t that great?

Thanks for reading!

December 5, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , . Giveaway, Life, San Antonio, Weight Loss. 5 comments.

Monthly Updates and Events

Holy smokes, today is December 1st. Although I am not shocked by the date, I have been waiting for this day to come for months, it certainly doesn’t feel like December 1st for me. That’s probably because I live in Texas and was just walking around downtown on my lunch break sans coat- its 74 degrees outside right now. Isn’t that crazy? I am very excited that December is here. December brings Christmas and a visit from my parents as well as my Nia White Belt Intensive and the 25 Days of Fitness challenge (through the Sisterhood) both of which start today. This month is going to be busy but I know it will be great!

Today was also exciting because it was my monthly weigh in to see if I reached my November goal of losing seven pounds. I should note that I try to measure myself on the first day of every month but I had an awful nightmare last night and woke up 30 minutes later than planned so I didn’t have the time this morning but I will make sure to do it tomorrow and post my results on the measurements page. I did have time enough to weigh myself and take my BMI and body fat percentage and here are the results.

Weight 11/1- 205.0 pounds, weight 12/1- 193.0 pounds

Monthly loss: 12 pounds! Woot! Goal met!

BMI 11/1- 33.6, BMI 12/1- 31.6- down to whole points! Yay!

I would like to note something here; when I first started tracking BMI/body fat 8 months ago my BMI was 45.2 which put me in the worst category, obese class III, and now I am less than two points away from the overweight category. That makes me so happy being so close to mobbing from obese to overweight because after that comes normal/average- where I am working hard to get to.

Body Fat Percentage 11/1- 35.2%, BF percentage 12/1- 33.8%- a change of 1.4%

My initial body fat percentage on 4/2 was 41.8% (which is crazy) so I am happy to be down 8% in eight months. That’s progress, baby!

My Nia White Belt Intensive starts this evening. I will be heading to the Synergy Studio straight from work to dance with the 530p class and then our training officially begins immediately afterwards. Tonight is only a couple of hours and they expect us to be finished by 830p. The rest of my training schedule is as follows; this weekend Friday, Saturday and Sunday 7am-645pm. Back to work Monday through Thursday (6am-5p) and then the following weekend I will complete the Nia WBI; training classes Friday & Saturday 7am-645p and then Sunday 7am-3pm. After we finish at 3p on Sunday December 11 there is a 4pm Nia class and I will be participating in that as well. My friend KH, whom I box with, said she will come to the class to celebrate with me completing the WBI. KH also came to the studio on Thanksgiving for Nia and she really liked it so I was really glad she was willing to come back and dance with me again. I kind of have an idea of what to expect for the six days I will be in training as my friend Simply Sidney just went through it a few weeks ago but I am sure it will be much more intense, informative and eye-opening than I can imagine. I am excited though and I can’t wait to come back and talk about with you once I have finished. Until then, here is (vague) description of what the Nia White Belt Intensive entails.

“The Nia White Belt Training is the first level of a five-belt training series that presents a body-centered approach to health, wellness and fitness. If you have a desire to share Nia in a professional capacity, the White Belt Training is your entryway into teaching. Those who choose to pursue the path of personal enrichment use this training as a starting point for becoming a master student.

Over the course of one week, you will comprehensively explore physical sensation through five core-competency areas of study including movement, music, anatomy, science and philosophy. This joyful journey into the self is instrumental in helping you develop body knowing by learning to listen, interpret and consciously respond to the information your body communicates to you via sensation.”

From the Nia website

The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans has come up with a great challenge to help us all keep active this holiday season- the O Fitness Tree 25 days of exercise challenge. I keep calling it the 25 days of fitness because for whatever reason that’s what is stuck in my head. They provided us a pdf of a Christmas tree (that looks like an advent calendar) and every day we exercise we give ourselves a sticker. Currently my tree is bare and hanging up at my desk but when I am back in the office Monday I will be decorating it with four stickers 🙂 There is also a tree hanging up on my fridge but it’s not mine; it’s Pauls. He decided to do the challenge with me to be supportive which just made me so happy. This morning I saw the tree and the pack of stickers hanging on the fridge and I almost started crying. I know it seems trivial but having him support me through things like this means the world to me. I am one lucky girl!


Since I am going to be out of commission the next few days I decided to post my fitness plan for the next week and then next Thursday I will report back as to how I did and show you pictures of my tree. I think weekly updates will work much better than daily. If you are also participating and blogging about it please leave me a link in the comments so I can check it out.

Thursday: Nia WBI

Friday: Nia WBI

Saturday: Nia WBI

Sunday: Nia WBI

Monday: yoga at lunch and kickboxing at 6p (hopefully I have enough energy to box)

Tuesday: Nia at 530p

Wednesday: yoga at lunch and hot Vinyasa yoga at 6p

Check back next week to see how I did!

I mentioned earlier in the post how I am excited that my parents are coming for Christmas. I mentioned the other day that I wanted to plan some fun things to do while they are here. Yesterday I got an emailed monthly newsletter from Jodi Roberts, who does the Sound Journey sessions with gongs and Tibetan bowls, and she has a concert on December 21st. The event is the Christmas Solstice Bells and Bowls Concert at the Boerne Yoga Center so I checked with my parents and they want to go. So there’s one activity planned; only 6 more days to fill 😉 I frequently talk to my parents about the things I do and although I would love for them to take a Nia or Journey Dance class I know they can’t do that so I am glad they can do this with me. They are hippies so this is right up their alley!

Thanks for reading!

December 1, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Fitness, Life, Weight Loss. 1 comment.

Shrinkvivor Weekly Check-In: Tribe Hodari Gray

This week has been crazy and I haven’t had the free time needed to write up my usual blog posts. This morning, however, I was up at 4am (ok, I hit snooze until 420a) in order to weigh in for Shrinkvivor. Since I was up an hour earlier than usual I had some extra time to write up a short post about my check in. No worries though, life should be back to normal tomorrow and my lengthy mind-numbing posts will be back 😉

My favorite visitor was in town this week, yes I am referring to my period, and I never know whether or not I will lose during my TOM. I was pretty excited to step on the scale this morning and see 209.2 pounds. Not only am I down 1.6 pounds from last Wednesday (woo hoo!) I am now less than ten pounds away from leaving the 200’s. Let me say that again- LESS…THAN…TEN…POUNDS!!! You have no idea how happy this makes me. Yes, I know that I still have a long road ahead of me until I am at a healthy weight/BMI/body fat% but crossing over that huge hurdle from 200’s to 100’s will be a big accomplishment for me. It’s been a very long time since my weight started with a ‘1’. I am not sure how long but if I had to guess it’s probably been the better part of a decade.


I would like to note also that I am very happy with a 1.6 pound loss. I would be lying if I said that seeing a four or five pound loss wouldn’t have made me happy but the truth of it is that 1.6 pounds makes me even happier. Why? Because that is what I should be losing weekly. Yes, I love those big numbers and it is exciting to see them propelling me closer to my goal but in reality I do want to lose at a slower, constant rate. It’s not only healthier for me but it’s better for my body (meaning loose skin/toning) to lose that way. Unfortunately I have no control over how my body loses weight meaning I pretty much do the same things; exercise, food, sleep, each week and yet one week I lose 4 pounds and the next I lose 1 pound. I think that ovulation and menstruation are playing into this as well. Whenever my hormones are fluctuating so is my weight loss. I guess that is just part of life though, right? I will just keep making the best decisions I can in regards to my health and accept the way my body loses/gains in the process.

Our Shrinkvivor challenge was logging exercise minutes. This week I set my personal goal for this challenge to reach/exceed 900 minutes. My end result – 1,060 minutes logged. That’s 17 hours and 40 minutes which in my opinion is pretty crazy. However, while it is happening during the week it doesn’t seem excessive so I guess that’s a good thing, right?

How did I do it? How did I log a couple hundred more minutes this week versus the week prior? What happened was a few activities popped up this week that I wanted to participate in and in turn I also wanted to take part in my regular classes so I just added them in. There was a free yoga class that was held at McAllister Park on Saturday and it was such a beautiful day I had no other choice but to get out there and participate. Then on Sunday we had our monthly Ecstatic Dance meetup and I couldn’t miss that either. I also added in a lunchtime walk on Friday which wasn’t an activity I previously had done but going forward might be something I keep on the schedule. I say it all the time, and I don’t mean to be a broken record, but this is why it is important to find activities you love doing. I logged over seven hours of activity between Saturday and Sunday events; Tai Chi, yoga, dancing, and I couldn’t have been happier. I felt fabulous inside and out and I was still able to spend the rest of those days enjoying quality time with Paul. So, yes, I am happy that once again our weekly challenge is logging activity minutes but even if it wasn’t I would still keep doing what I do. It’s what I love. It makes me stronger. It makes me healthier. It makes me happier. Regardless of the outcome of Shrinkvivor I am already a winner. I won my life back. That’s the ultimate prize.

Best of luck to all Shrinkvivor participants this week!

Go Tribe Hodari Gray!

Thanks for reading!

October 19, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Shrinkvivor, Weight Loss. 3 comments.

Five Things Friday


We did it! We successfully made it through week two’s Tribal Council for Shrinkvivor. Team Hodari Gray is still intact. How? We won immunity! Again! J It’s great having a team that works so hard every week ensuring that we are all safe for another week. I think they said at Tribal Council that we averaged 687 exercise minutes per person. That’s 4809 minutes, or 80 hours and 9 minutes, total for the tribe. Wow! I am so impressed with this tribe. I definitely lucked out. My minutes dropped by almost two hundred between week 1 and 2 and the tribe still upped our average by 100 minutes. These ladies are powerhouses!

This week our challenge is exercise minutes again and I mentioned on Wednesday’s post that my personal goal was to exceed 900 minutes this week. I didn’t lay out my workout plan but just figured I would add a couple activities to my normal routine and voila; 900 minutes. However, by not writing it out I failed to realize I would be adding in four additional activities this week and my minutes should more realistically be over 1,000. Yay! I am hoping we can keep pushing ourselves this week and get immunity for the third week in a row.

Fifty Pounds

Yesterday I was at the Synergy Studio, my home away from home, for Nia and Qigong. Thursday Nia is usually taught by Joanie but Adelle was there instead filling in for her. Adelle is not only a black belt trainer, she has been doing Nia for 13 years (I think), she is also the studio owner and one of the most amazing people I have ever met. I could, and probably should, write a whole post just about her but today I just want to tell you about a conversation we had. The Nia classes at Synergy are taught around a focus, set by and varying by the instructor, which usually changes weekly. If you happen to go to multiple classes within the same week taught by the same instructor you will probably end up dancing the same routine. This helps to develop a better understanding of the routine but also it helps you to remember if by chance you do the routine again months later. That is what happened yesterday. I realized early in the routine that I had danced it before and that it was early on in my Nia journey. It might have even been the third or fourth class I had ever been to it was that early on. Afterwards I went up to Adelle and told her that I remembered that routine and that I remembered it was one of the first ones I had done. She said it was her routine, meaning she chose the music and choreographed it, and that it was the one they filmed in the studio. I was in it. That was back in June and I am not sure if I ever mentioned it on the blog or not but for part of her black belt training she had to record a class participating in an original routine. She told me she was just watching the video the other day while preparing for this week’s classes and that she saw me in it and could not believe how much my body has changed in the past four months. I told her that when I started at Synergy I weighed 260 pounds and I now weigh 210. She said I need to watch the video because it is amazing how different I look and how quickly it has happened. She also asked me if at some point, now or later on in my WLJ, if I wouldn’t mind writing about my story. She thinks it is something Debbie Rosas (co-founder of Nia) would be interested in hearing. I think I am ready to write my Nia story stay tuned for that post.

Talking with Adelle yesterday I had so many thoughts running through my mind; how much Nia has changed my life, how important it is to do things you love, how appreciative I am to have supportive friends and peers cheering me on, but the one thing I could not get over was how proud I was of myself. Not because I lost fifty pounds since joining Synergy or how since that time I have committed myself to bettering my life. Nope, I was proud that Dacia fifty pounds ago didn’t let her weight stop her from being filmed for a Nia video. I know I probably had some apprehension about how I would look on camera but I think even early on I felt acceptance and love from Nia and that was enough to allow me to dance while being filmed and not care about how I looked. So please, if you can take anything from this post here is the one piece of advice I hope you take to heart: don’t wait until you are ‘skinny’ to try things. That was the hardest thing for me to do, to try new things, because I was afraid people would judge me or be disgusted by me because I was fat and that stopped me so many times. I always thought to myself ‘I’ll try that, once I am skinny’ or ‘I’m too fat to do that’. If you want to try yoga or swimming or joining a local walking group do it. Do it now! You are worth it and you have every right to do the things you want to do regardless of your size, shape, age. I’ll be right here, cheering you on, because I know you can do anything you set your mind to!

Nia beats Hockey

Tonight is the first Friday night hockey game of the season. Friday night hockey is Paul’s favorite because Friday nights are dollar beer night. The game starts at 7p and now that we live on post we are less than ten minutes from the stadium which is awesome. However, Friday evenings I usually go to Nia from 5:30p to 6:30p which will more than like cause us to be late to the game. The other day I posed this scenario to Paul and gave him three options to choose from:

A. I go to Nia and we get to the game late, hopefully sometime mid-first period.
B. I go to Nia and we drive separately to the game. He gets to see the whole game and I still get to go to class
C. I skip Nia and we go to the game on time, together

Do you know which one he chose? A. of course because he is awesome and knows how important my classes are to both my physical and emotional well being. Although people may think I am crazy but if I had to prioritize I would put Nia ahead of hockey every time. That’s just the person I am now. It’s weird. I still think that I get to have it all though. I mean I do get to go to the game and the Nia class. Win-win. Oh, and Paul still gets his $1 beer. Win-win-win.

100 Day Chip

On Wednesday I received my first 30 Day Chip. You should go check it out here if you haven’t already. Now I am on day 33 working towards that elusive 100 day chip. I think only one person has ever achieved it. I hope to make that list someday. Maybe in 67 days from now, maybe in 267 days from now; we shall see how long it takes. Regardless of whether or not I get that chip the best part of this process is every day I complete I am further engraining into my memory good habits I will always want to follow. I started out on the 7 Day Chip and the 30 Day Chip counting successful days by whether or not I tracked and portioned my food and drank at least my minimum daily recommended servings of water. Now as I move on towards that 100 Day Chip I am adding a daily goal of activity. My goal is to get my body moving every day for the next 67 days straight. It doesn’t have to be a class though it can be anything active; a walk in the park, a yoga DVD, really just anything to get me moving. Each day I do so I step further away from the sedentary lifestyle I was confined to for far too long. Each day I am active I get further from the path I was headed straight towards; diabetes, heart disease, and numerous other obesity related conditions. For me, this is the best goal I could ever set for myself. It’s the goal that’s helping me get my life back.


Since I didn’t have a blog post yesterday you all missed out on work outfit #4. Here it is. Now aside from one black and white cardigan you have seen all my non-casual Friday work clothes. Also, I need to mention that the shirt from yesterday is much nicer in person. The green color that looks like baby poo in the pics is really chartreuse.





Happy Friday! Thanks for reading!

October 14, 2011. Tags: , , , , , , , , . Nia, Shrinkvivor, Weight Loss. 6 comments.

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